February 2012
1 post
January 2012
1 post
Christmas Break
The end of Christmas break is coming in hard and fast. Only a week left and I haven’t done anything productive at all. I was sick the first week, perma-high the next, drunk the third, and here we stand. I didn’t even finish the scarf I was knitting for my friend’s Christmas present, and her visit has long passed.
I have been trying not to let my brain wonder too much this...
December 2011
2 posts
Psychology and Our Worst Subjects
At the end of this summer I began packing all of the things in my room to get it up and out of the way. My mother had the reputation of changing all rooms, after the children move out, into storage. I didn’t want my things to disappear in the mess of fabric. I found a large box of stuff from my old and many Girl Scout years. One of the things in the box being a large binder with every...
I haven’t posted in a long time, and I think it’s about time I start again. Tumblr has changed from when I first started posting, and that’s what drew me away. I don’t care if I lose or gain followers, I still need a place to type out my frustrations. So here we go…
I last left you in the heat of my freshman year of college, I’m now a “fully aged...
March 2011
2 posts
Nothing is going my way...
For the second time in less than a year plans to see my grandmother have fallen through. I haven’t seen her since I was 5 and she’s not in the best health. I don’t know if the next time I see her will be the last, and I can’t even see her.
The relationship I entered into in November is still going as planned, but the stronger feelings I grow the more...
February 2011
3 posts
For those that don't know me, or think they do.
My name is Phylicia Kecskes. I was born May 13th, 1992. I stand a mere 5’3”. I’m a second generation American being half Hungarian, a quarter Irish, and the rest is mutt. I am a born and raised Coloradoan, with no greater love than for the mountains and the thin air at high elevations. I am very proud of my heritage and my background. I was raised by a single mom and I have two...
No longer living in the dorms, yay!
Filed out and submitted my housing application today. I will now be living in my own place, with two wonderful roommates, Anna and Valarie. Should make for a fun year. : ]
The fact that I scored the lowest possible on the...
makes me feel stupid. And makes me second guess my major only because I haven’t done half the freshman preqs because I don’t qualify.
January 2011
2 posts
Why do I always fell like I’m messing things up, and being judge for everything I do and every reaction I have to situations.
Sucks.
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December 2010
5 posts
Reading a story known as one of the greatest love stories of all time, and entering into a situation that you know very well will hurt is a bad idea. Yet, even posting this I’m still going for it.
The more I think, the more I realize how unhappy I...
Realization...
Kris and I are much closer than any combination of Trevor, Kris, and I because while he was at the hospital, and with anything associated, Kris and I were being shuffled from house to house together. Bonding without trying to.
November 2010
7 posts
Reblog if you like someone you can't have.
The Ogden... More than Just a Concert Hall.
No matter your musical preference, or opinion, personally Simple Plan is amazing. My middle school years were full of lonely, friendless nights and listening to the two albums they produced, and the many more random collections of their music I came to own over time, helped me through so much. They have made the biggest impact on my life today, and I do not feel that I would be the same person...
I’m making a list of all the books I will read, and can remember reading from 6th grade on. So far it’s at 60 with 7 books here in Foco still to read. :D
Can’t wait to see how many of the, about 20, books I asked for for Christmas I will get.!
Finally Able to Talk...
On November 7th, 2007 my big brother Kris sat me at the dining room table and told me he had some sad news.
In our family no one really talked to relatives. I blame my dad’s own alienation from his family and his efforts to alienate my mother’s family. After many years divorced and another heart surgery in the family my dad’s older brother Eric decided to contact the family. No...
October 2010
7 posts
I want a long distance relationship...
Just because video chat is much more cute than a phone call, and lame if you can just walk down the street and say hey. Just saying.
Why is it that those who had their chance missed it, but every day they make a new excuse for me to give them a second?
I wish I could drive a Delorian 88 mph. The time nowadays doesn’t move fast enough, I need to be out of this bull shit drama and onto being with more mature people. College helps people mature my ass.
Love Stories... The Irony.
I could sit and read stories until forever. If it was a love story that is. I love reading, but with love stories no matter how cheesy, clique, or impossible I fall madly for them. I’m pulled to these stories, whether in text or film. I love the over used, the redone, the puppy love works of television, movies, and books. But I’m afraid for it to happen to me.
Since I can remember, whenever I felt jumbled and didn’t really know what to think or do I listened to music, wrote, or both. I don’t have an iPod, which makes it hard to just walk around with no purpose and think with music flowing (a unique word that means helpfully) through the ear buds. So I sit here at my computer listening to my 8 gigs of music and writing.
I feel, right...
September 2010
1 post
Update...
I haven’t posted in a long time, and I feel like I need to.
Fort Collins was more of the change I needed from the Springs. I couldn’t be happier here. The change of pace was a great change. :D
July 2010
1 post
I Wanna Be Gone,
And never come back. I hate the Springs.!
June 2010
0 posts
May 2010
4 posts
Why can’t everyone see us, like those that love us see us?
Will It Blend?
Too many feelings rushing through me right now to be good. They shouldn’t be all at once. BLAH.!
April 2010
11 posts
I'm My Own Worst Enemy
I hate fake people. If there is anyone in the world worse than stupid fake people I have yet to meet them.
However, I’m fake.
No one knows how, and no one ever will. But know now. I’m fake.
Can I Ever Win?
Life never gives me the upper hand. To quote Liza “I’m a good girl, I am” why can’t I be treated like one?
I always get the butt end of everything. Nothing ever goes my way and I’m sick of it. Completely done with it.
“I will run, till my feet can’t touch the ground”
Summer Project.
Watching every movie my favorite actors/actresses played main characters.
This is gonna be a long list. lol.
Favorite Abandoned Place →
These are abandoned ships left to rust near Kamchatka, Russia.
I wanna go here so bad.!
I Love....
Abandoned things. They look so amazing. Especially things in Russia. Haha.
This Isn't Right.
It shouldn’t be easier to live at home while I’m medicated.
I shouldn’t have to cry in my room ‘cause I hate my brother, and my mother always thinks I’m in the wrong.
If he starts the fight, and I yell back all I get is “Got to your room and take your medication”. Should a mother say that to her daughter?
Should a teenager be happy to leave...
Freud Was Maybe Right. Haha.
I did something really stupid, and it brought back some repressed memories, and I went off the deep end a little.
I was acting all stupid and crazy today, and kinda like I was 4 again. A little trippy.
Love?
After remembering why I love Plato and his view on soul mates, it’s got me thinking.
For those of you that don’t know Plato believed that humans were born with 4 arms, 4 legs, and two faces. But Zeus was so intimidated by these creates that he split them so they would spend their entire life searching for their other half.
Lori and I believe that their can be two...
March 2010
5 posts
513
I was just the 513th note on someone’s post, and it made me giggle a little inside.
I've realized a few things.
-After deciding what school I am going to next year, I want to just be there already.
-I need and want to be healthier, and yes that does mean thinner.
-I need to find “myself” before college.
-I want so many more tattoos.!
-Who my true friends are, and what they really mean to me.
-How amazing my new/old friend(s) truly are.
-How someone who I knew when I was little, is my exact...
14 States Sue to Ban the Health Care Reform.!
Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, Fuck you, and Fuck you.
People claim that health insurance, and health care is a business. It shouldn’t be. That is the highest form of praying on peoples needs.
Doctor: “Oh you need a new heart at 9, it’s gonna cost ya.”
Patient: “We...